Love is wonderful yet terrible thing. If you have ever been hurt by someone then you can understand that statement. Before meeting my husband I had the Devil’s brother for a boyfriend [soon to be husband] or so I had thought.
I met someone who I was certain was sent by God. Man, we were in love but now I reminisce and realize we were actually “in lust”. Lol. Anyway, it never ended so well as I found out that this guy graduated Magna cum laude from “The School For Compulsive Liars”. The relationship that started out as a simple friendship ended in brokenness and tears.
I decided I did not want anybody in my life after all I underwent. Seriously being rejected by my church and friends due this relationship. I had so much pent up pain, hurt and regrets inside of me that I could not function within my destiny. Felt like the entire world had turned against me. I would leave work late in the nights and leave for work early so I never had the chance to encounter anyone. I eventually had to leave my church to go to an unknown church that God had shown and sent me and that’s where I was healed and delivered so that my life could go on purposefully. That took almost a year and just when I was comfortably thankful in this new church family and was being drafted to sing on the worship team [which was a huge deal] and do other stuff within that church, the Lord told me it was time to return to my old church to “forgive and mend the shattered past I had left there”. I thought to myself “Just kill me Jesus rather than sentencing me to such cruelty”. You cannot begin to imagine how difficult that was for me to return after the way they had treated me. Good Lord! I tarried for weeks. I DID NOT WANT TO RETURN – I WAS TOTALLY BITTER AGAINST THEM.
You need to understand the public humiliation and disgrace they caused in my life. Let me give you one scenario: While I was dating the guy the then pastor, went on the podium just before public service was closed and just announced “Well, today we will choose a new youth leader, Family Life Ministry secretary and Choir leader” Those were all positions I held within the church. Just like that. Nobody had called me in a private meeting to brief me that this was going to be done and so tell me to be prepared or something like that. My church family began looking at me some nodding approvingly, while others clapped and some just stared at me and laughed while the visitors were wondering what in earth is happening. Then the gossiping and pointing of finger in my direction began. You see, they all believed my behaviour with this guy was inappropriate and so I should be relieved of those positions and that is the procedure that the process took. Smile, Amazing. Funny thing is, it so happened that the guy’s car broke down at my gate after a date and was there for a while since the part that he needed to fix it, he did not get and was told he had to wait for at least 3 days before it would arrive. He said a wrecking service would be too expensive (which is honestly true) so he parked it in my yard and left it there. In reality the part actually took a whole week so He was not at my house but his car was in my yard. My mom was away on vacation and so only my friend (who is 10 years my senior) and I were home. You could see how the wrong conclusions could have been drawn. Easily!
Albeit nobody bothered to even ask me what was going on. I made sure the guy never even visited during this time nor did we go out together, fearing someone would see and have more ammunition with which to shoot me. That didn’t matter. I was coffined for that act of foolishness [allowing his car to be left there for such a long time] and buried for unrighteousness and immorality – of course.
You know, I have learnt a lot from my experiences in life, negative and positive alike. One of the greatest is “things are not always as they appear to be”. Watching movies like, CSI, Law and Order also NCIS have taught me that too. Sometimes, even when the apparent evidence tells one story, the truth is always usually hidden below the surface.
The same applies to God’s word – The Bible. I have come to realize that many people read the bible but never actually “RE-EE-AD THE BIBLE”. God’s truth/ revelation is usually hidden beneath the surface of the words. It has to be unveiled and revealed. That comes through a deep searching for Him not just the facts or evidences of what was read. So you can have people who know their bible in verbatim but don’t believe in the Author of the bible. They have no revelation of the truth because they never left the surface to find the Truth-Teller. So they make their own deductions and judgments simply off facts and not truth. Fact is never the best place to stop. Seek the truth. Jesus is the Way to truth while being Truth in and of himself. That’s awesome! So when you find Him, you’ve literally found it all.
Let me encourage you today to get deeper into whatever venture you are involved. Push yourself. There is a level greater than fact. It’s called truth. Remember, things are not always as they appear to be. So tell me are you a truth seeker or a fact keeper?