What? You must be mad,
Obviously you don’t care how this makes me sad.
After all they have done to me,
You are asking me to let them go free?
I think You have surely lost Your mind this time,
Of all the ugliest things you want me to leave behind,
No! This cannot be fine,
This hurt and pain is mine.
I hold it wrapped in my heart,
I do not, with it want to part.
Do you know how it made me feel?
How it burnt me like the stink of an electric eel?
My pain is here to stay
I will hold on to it for yet another day.
Truth is though,
Its eating at me like nothing else I know,
It’s encasing me with bitterness like cold hard steel,
It has deadened my thoughts and not making me feel,
Even the warmth of the sun,
Or the love of Your Son.
I surely need help,
But how can I forgive,
No! No! No!.. I’d rather not live,
Than to let them go for all they did.
Truth is my heart and soul is in bondage,
Unforgiveness is keeping me hostage.
I’m so torn about what to do,
God come to my rescue, will You?
Lord come to me! No please stay!
Lord come, No stay!
Lord come, No stay away!
‘Cause if you come I know what You will say.
“Forgive and be free,
It’ll be fine, you’ll see”.
Yes, Lord I hear you loud and clear,
It really hurts and is hard so it brought me a scare.
Truth is my offenders are walking around sweetly carefree,
When I suddenly realise all along the real prisoner was me.
written by Amorelle Lewinson. copyright © 2013. All rights reserved.