Two weeks ago, I was about to prepare lunch for my family, when I took out a fresh Titus fish from the freezer.
Suddenly my one year five months old daughter who stood by watching, started crying and demanding that I give her the fish to eat. I kept trying to tell her in my own way that the fish was raw, I needed to spice it up, cook it and then take out the bones so it can be ready for consumption, but my toddler wouldn’t hear none of it…she chose to cry louder and even fell to the ground and no one was able to comfort her. I decided to ignore her, went ahead to do what was right and when it was ready, she had her fish and didn’t even remember all the drama she had put up.
But the Holy Spirit ministered to me that this is how many of us cry for a blessing that is not yet ready. God is saying am spicing it up, cooking it and taking out the bones so you don’t get choked. If only my little daughter knew, she would have waited patiently instead of being anxious.
(Phil.4:6) God is saying to someone here that you should be anxious for nothing, Be still and know that I am God I am spicing up that blessing so you will enjoy to the fullest.
Wait on the Lord! (Is.40:31) Like Job said..All the days of my appointed time will I wait till my change comes. (Job 14:14)
Change is coming, Help is on the way.
God is all about newness.
Many times newness can be scary. I think about Abraham, and when he was asked to leave his home and everything he knows, to go to an unknown place and how he must have felt inside. Yes he trusted and believed God, so he went willfully. However, it must have been a little scary. It must have been saddening too, to leave the comfort of all he knows for the discomfort of the unknown. I can imagine it may have been exciting too, to discover new people, new ideas, new lands and new adventures as he travelled.
I look into my own life and see the many changes and challenges that come with that change and it scares me likewise. Opening my heart to love enough to help those who need my help, is a new adventure for me. Gaining what I thought I never wanted, but realizing how fulfilled I feel after embracing what God said I should, is newness all over. I had shut my heart up to the complete assistance of others out of fears and past hurts for a while, and relearning to care for those outside the scope of my comfort, is another adventure all by itself. NEWNESS!
As the Lord shows me my future and the many, many newness that he’s about to swiftly take me into, its scary. However, like Abraham, I want to be “counted as righteous” because of my simple faith in Jesus regarding the unknown. I definitely do not know all my future, but the portions I know are about to manifest, are really all NEW. I must say it has me a little on edge. Albeit, I will embrace my fears and proceed, because though I do not know it all, I am friends with the One who does. He will take me safely through…
What newness are you in the middle of? How can you embrace them in order to proceed into purpose?
Here’s a clue below:
For the Scriptures tell us, “Abraham believed God, and God counted him as righteous because of his faith.” Romans 4:3 (NLT)
I have found that the sex industry these days is a multi-Billion dollar one. Sadly, something created for us to enjoy in a pure manner, has been perverted to such horrifying degrees, that it is scary to conceive or worst believe. People have allowed themselves to have sex with animals (bestiality), sex with minors/children (pedophilia) and I’ve seen documentaries where persons even make/fall in love with buildings and objects (objectophilia).
Most of these trends began with being exposed to pornography. Pornography is a cruel ill that does no good to those who are hooked by its iron claws. I say that with no apologies, being a Christian who was hooked to its diabolic charms. When I was younger, I stumbled upon a magazine that I shouldn’t have and curiosity led me to “research” that was way too adult for my early teen mind.
Years later being exposed to greater internet capabilities, I began deeper ‘research’ online, and my so-called research led to an addiction that consumed every waking (and sleeping) moment of my life. Pornography is a wicked task master. It entices and lures you into a trap of addiction. No matter how much you watch, read or imagine, it is never enough. Never! Porn took over my life to the point where, I would rush home as the clock hits 5:00 pm, so I could dive into the vomit of my own mess. It became such a problem (unknown to the public of course, because we are great at hiding our sins), that pretty soon I wanted my husband to “be” some of those fictional men I see on my ‘research’. (You know that cannot be good). My mind became consumed with all kinds of perversions and fetish of all sorts. My mind was fifty shades of gray (pun intended). I felt terrible usually, after hours of consuming such garbage, Yet I WAS NOT ABLE TO STOP. Sigh! I felt the Holy Spirit stirring within me when I partook and I know it was wrong especially as a Christian, but I was captured, I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO STOP! Every day became my last day, yet the next day I began all over again.
One day, while channel hopping, I stumbled upon a documentary revealing the “how to” of pornographic movies. I realized I was completely tricked into believing everything was as it appears in these movies. I was deceived into thinking these girls were always truly enjoying these hammerings (pun intended). I saw that at times these ladies were even in tears before and after a filming because of the pain and soreness they were experiencing. Some of those moans of ecstasy, were actually muffled screams of agony. I was shocked. They are great actors. Thespians at their best! Many of them actually had different lives where they were married and for some, their spouses knew nothing about their ‘second job’ because their life outside the porn, is the complete opposite.
This was a serious wake up call for me. Like unveiling my curtained eyes. I sat in amazement as I watch the editors and directors piece tons and tons of edited material into one “perfect movie”. Then there are some videos that are excruciatingly raw and cruel. Brutal and crude. They are devoid of true love and affection. Horrifying, yet individuals pay thousands of dollars to download and watch these cruelties daily and monthly. Nonetheless, no matter the form, type, length or category, porn does no good to anyone!
After watching the documentary, my bail from mental porn jail began. I was not freed immediately, but surely it jolted me into common sense. In my book “Divine God Encounters” , I share how I was delivered in totality from my addiction to pornography. God is good. There is no prison from which He cannot free us.
So today’s quote reflects what I have learnt about pornography after years of addiction and its dangers to our spiritual, mental, emotional and sexual health:
You know I have found “Favour” to be a great thing. There are several definitions for the word ‘favour’. There are biblical and non-biblical definitions for the word. Basically, Favour (not biblical definition) can be defined as: “an act of kindness beyond what is due or usual”. When we receive unusual kindness and goodness in our lives, we can define it as Favour. Many persons have unusual favour on their lives while some can hardly recognize any at all. How can you increase favour on your life if you find yourself in the latter? I believe honouring persons can increase favour in our lives dramatically. It has happened to me. Who’s voice are you listening to? Who has influence in your life? Favour can be earned through honouring the right voice. [Of course to get Divine Favour you need to honour the voice of Jesus]. This wonderful tool to assist our lives and propel our future, can truly tell us a lot about the people we have around us. When you begin to experience unusual expressed kindness from others, note their responses and you will know who in your circle is for or against you.
This quote is therefore one of the things I have learnt about favour:
So, Tuesday was my birthday. It was an interesting day. Didn’t begin how I imagined but ended with a manifestation of a revelation I had that same morning. I was very pensive that day, looking over my life in the last few years, when this quote floated to the forefront of my thoughts:
“It’s best to have a circle of 3 that loves you to death, than a circle of 300 that loves you with conditions”.
So I jumped on my Facebook page and posted it like I normally would. I didn’t know, I would prove it that same day. On Tuesday two of my friends dropped their entire Tuesday to attend to mine. I feel so honoured and humbled to have them in my life. The greatest thing, is they would’ve done it whether it was my birthday or not. They are true friends in deed and in need. The above quote became surreal to me you know. Smile.
Considering this, I want to declare some things for the friends in our lives. If you have anyone, you can be yourself with and they love you despite your flaws – ALL YOUR FLAWS, they want the best for you at all times, even at their expense… they are your “Ride and Die with Peeps” – they are worth protecting and cherishing at all cost. So why don’t you add these declarations to your daily diet for those true friends eh? Better yet, begin to announce them to the atmosphere if you do not yet have true friends, so the universe can begin aligning them to you… okay, here we go:
I declare and decree that:
My friends are true and will never be corrupted by gossip or the willful malicious intent of others who want to separate us.
My friends are loyal to me, even as I am loyal to them. I strive to see them happy.
My friends are healthy and whole. Sickness and disease are far from them.
My friends are protected and covered comprehensively under the blood of Jesus.
My friends are wise and they act in wisdom to manage the affairs of their lives.
My friends are rich. Poverty’s door will never be opened to them in any way, shape or form.
My friends are smart, creative and talented. Their gifts are making room for them to be brought in the presence of greatness.
My friends shall be promoted and exalted in whatever arena they choose to venture.
My friends are surrounded in favour. They shall be shrouded in love always.
My friends’ families, are all successful in any endeavor they undertake.
My friends will never be overwhelmed by the cares of this life. Joy, peace and strength shall govern their lives.
My friends are being chased and terrorized by blessings and prosperity.
My friends are prisoners of the kindness of others.
My friends are loaded with witty inventions that will aid them and bring joy to others.
My friends are successful in all they do – they have the gold touch.
My friends and I will always be true. Our friendship will never be severed unless the Lord separates us for His purpose/glory and our benefit,
In Jesus name
Written by Amorelle Lewinson. ©2016. All rights reserved.
Dedicated to my true best friends: Christine, Nalesha, Sylvester, Lois.